'09; new year, new start, new changes, new possibilties, new BLOG.

hmmm, soooo, its 2009, new year! this new year don't mean I can erase alll my mistakes i've made in the past year, but this year, I can atleast fix those mistakes, and hopefullly I have learned from them. '08 has been filled with ups &downs, but the things'll remember most is meeeting the new people I have met already. It has been an emotional rollercoaster, with bumps here and there, since the border change. Theres positives and negatives caused from the border change. I've heard that this border change has caused friendships from different schools to fall apart. But is it really the border change? This border change has shown many of us which friends will be there in the end, reallly. Its a testimony of true friendship. Its just one of those things in life, a helper, to show us who will be there, who will stick by you, no matter the distance. I mean, kenzi has been gone to the Phillipines, but look at us, for example. We talk to eachother everyday at least. I stay up as late as I can, just to say a quick helllo, to show her i'm there, to show her I haven't forgotten about her. But, due to this border change, I have met A LOT of people who have changed my life. Like, Katrina. She taught me to forget about my past mistakes, that THIS year, it can change, for the better. &Katie, she taught me to be a better person. That it's the little things that count. A lot of people have flown in and out of my life this year. Physicallly, they'll leave, but the memories i've had with them will NEVER leave. Trust, i've done some prettty dumb things last year, but THIS year, theres new possibilities. To show yourself, you CAN change for the better, not just for the worst. That there are other things to life than just llove, and lust. That we'd had our share of cries, and laughter, but somehow managed to get through it, in our own little way. Anyways, enough with the bad, its time for the goood memories we have shared. There are MANY things, I can never forget. &many people. To the times where I first came to AMS, and it felt so empty, like half of me was left at Chavez, to the times where I come to school, where there's open arms, to keep you warm. From the times where i'd cried, night after night, over a guy who wasn't even worth my time. I ALSO learned from that, although she hasn't. If a guy is tearing you and your friend apart, shit, hes not even worth the shit your giving him. & to the times where I would cry myself to sleeep, thinking where I would be if I never had met kenzi. I've learned from my mistakes, and trust me, thats better said than done. This year, I hope I can be a better person, someone to be proud about. Someone who i'm comfortable with; in my OWN skin. To be someone whom I choose to be, not some pressured little slut whom everyone has made her into be. I hope the new year can mean as much as you to me, and I hope you have a goood one. (= hahah, I love you, KATRINA, I know your watching, cousin. :D