Hilario, Kenzi.

kenzi, kenzi kenzi kenzi. It's 2:51 AM, thursday, January 1st over here, and its 6:51 PM, Friday, January 2nd over there? welll, iont know, I have forgotten. hahah. (x iont know where to start, uhmm, haha, so me and kenzi first saw eachother at this festival thing at INC. hahah, when I first saw her, I thought, "OMMG, a familiar face, kenzi!" and thats when we OFFICIALLY "hit it off," hahah. (x we're getting closer day by day. :D you're in the PI right now, and I wrote about that in my previous new years blog. I wanna tell you HELLLA misss you, and I wish you were here with me, today, to celebrate the new years with me. =/ This year, I know i'm gonna misss you, and it hasn't been the same without you. idk, it seems like theres an empty space in my body; in my heart and soul. I feel like a part of me, is misssing. A part that will never heal completely, until we reunite in our older years. hmmm, i've head MANY memories with you. Like all those sleepovers we've had, and making fun of Ms.Loggins in P.E. hahah, remember when I would come in Ms.Kuhlman's class, and we would always exchange our, hi's and hello's. Two years straight, same P.E. class. hahah, remember Ms.Crittendon's the new Ms.Logggins? and the rumor with ms.loggins and mr.amaral? haha, darnit linh-chi! (x hahah, I remeember the days we would walk to P.E, so happily, yelling at eachother, sayingg, "OH MY GOSHH!" (inside jokes,) hahah, SINGLE FILE LINE, hahah. (x you've helped me through a lot. You helped me figure out that theres a fine line betweeen friendship, and love. That its never worth fighting for a love that just interferes with your friendship. You taught me a lot, and i'm blessed I have ever met you. You were the one, who helped me along the coldest nights, who stayed up with me when I was foolish, and cried over M-----, and J----. I misss having lunch with you, I miss my twin, my bestfriend, and ugggh. I'd do anything to get you, back, here with me. But iont think that would happen, since your family neeeds you there too. But the least we could do, is send things back and forth right? OMG, remember our TACCCO? ommg, we would write in it EVERYDAY, and people would ask what it was, and we would say, "uhmm, its nothing," hahah, we shared our deepest feelings in that booook, memories. aaahhh. Welll, I just wanted to let you know, that distance doesn' mattter. I feel like your still here with me, but not physicallly, in my heart tho. You always will be, just like that one song. "cuhs you'll be in my heart, from this day on, now and forever more." Exactly, just like it. =/ Welll, happpy new years, and I hope you still remember me as the same person you did when you left the U.S. I love you Kenzi Manlapaz Hilario, and you never did leave, fully. Your spirit stays with me everyday, your words you've said to me in the past keeep me motivated, and strong, altough your in the Phillipines. I just wish, I could see you for one more day, and actually, say gooodbye.

Mallorca, Maryl.

Ahhh, I have gone through so much with this girl. (; Good and bad, but especiallly those goood times. The bad's over, and I hope that NEVER happens again, twin/otherhalf/triplet. I'll NEVER make the same mistake I made last year, and i'll never let you go, ever again, no mattter what it takes, you'll be in my life, forever. Promise? My only regret is that I hardly talked to her in elementary schooll. Well, anyways, we started talking in sixth grade. Thank God for putting us into the same P.E. class. If not, iont know what would have went down. hmmm, I could list all of my moments with her but that would take forever, so i'lll just list a couple. hmm, remember when I would come over afterschoool, hella randomly? SURPRISE, hahah. &we would eat soybeans with salt, ohman, tagging video, hahah. Sleeepovers with this girl are CRRRRRRAZY. she'll draw on your face when your first to sleeep, and put the innitials, K.R., on your left cheek, and on your right, a messsed up flower, hahah. (: OHYEAH, she forces you to make nooodles with her at 4 am, hahah, talk about crrrazy. Honestly, I grew up with this girl. Spent most of my middle schoool days with her, and iont know where I would be if I hadn't met you. You CHANGED my life, like no one else could. You're a part of me now, not just a best friend. My, OTHERHALF, through middle schoool, and I hope high schoool and college. Remember our one day trip to Las Vegas twin! (: Remember the day we made FCMT? hahah, I kinda do. (x end of sixthgrade eeh? OMMG, remember last year, and our sixth grade crushes? haah, bleh. Milk &Jam, and Doughnut. OBSESSSED, hahah. I miss those days tho, no matter how stupid we loooked going to the science wing just to take a peeek at our young men, hahah. I remember the FIRST time we ever went to UL, we started a craze. haha. (x I remember it was the day of the chinatown field trip. We went to iHop, and watched Horton Hears a Who, wwooot. hahah, funnest day EVER, no lie. Mama tee, foshizzzle. Maryl Mallorca has been with me, through all the drama, and crap we faced, through all the tears, and alll the fights, we've managed to get through, to the point of where we are today, and I am proud of us for that. I will NEVER forget you, when I loook back at my middle schoool years. Your the one person I will never forget. I love you Maryl Mallorca, honestly. I'd do ANYTHING, to get back the way we used to be, but for now, we'll take life as it goes, together. And im sorrry, for that period of time, where we drifted. Damage's done, and over with, but I still have the emotional scars left with me until today. D; I love you, and don't worrry, we'lll get there, you just wait; someday(=

Wang, Katie.

hmmm, this year, I came to AMS, thinking I wouldn't meeet ANYONE who would change my life, drastically. But at this time, I had never known Katie Wang. She's just, one in a million, as hannnah montana would say it. She changed my life, helping me blosssom into a young woman. She showed me the right direction, never trying to pressure me into anything stupid, like drugs and alcohol. This year, i've learned who willl be there for me, through thick&thin; those TRUE friends. &Katie, sure is one of them. She's just like no other. She knows me more than I know myself. When I first met her, I hadn't reallly thought we would become so close, like we are today. I just thought we would become acquaintences. Little did I know, that we had become quick friends, and she'd be one of the those people I neeeded to talk to everyday. I telll Katie EVERYTHING that goes around. Honestly, Katie's the whole package. She'lll cheeer you up on the rainiest day. She'll lend you her jacket on the coldest day of the weeek, when she only has a shirt under. I only knew Katie for about 3 months now, but truthfully, I trust her with absolutely everything. I remember those letters we wrote eachother, haha, how corny. (x and I remember our first sleepover together,w/ giselle, and nathan. hah, memories. (: hahahah, ommmg, (x HAHAH, OHHH, and our SECRET basketballl handshake, haha. xD She's my cereal, and i'm her apple pie." Shawty you a teeen just played. " I miss you saying that to me. =/ hmmm, basicallly, we go through everything together, and I talk to her prettty much everyday, and when I don't get to, I feeel like I already missed a big chunk in m ylife. aahhh, corny! hahah. (x uhhhmm, but yeah, I never wannna lose Katie EVER, and hoeskanknigggerbitch, get your own.

'09; new year, new start, new changes, new possibilties, new BLOG.

hmmm, soooo, its 2009, new year! this new year don't mean I can erase alll my mistakes i've made in the past year, but this year, I can atleast fix those mistakes, and hopefullly I have learned from them. '08 has been filled with ups &downs, but the things'll remember most is meeeting the new people I have met already. It has been an emotional rollercoaster, with bumps here and there, since the border change. Theres positives and negatives caused from the border change. I've heard that this border change has caused friendships from different schools to fall apart. But is it really the border change? This border change has shown many of us which friends will be there in the end, reallly. Its a testimony of true friendship. Its just one of those things in life, a helper, to show us who will be there, who will stick by you, no matter the distance. I mean, kenzi has been gone to the Phillipines, but look at us, for example. We talk to eachother everyday at least. I stay up as late as I can, just to say a quick helllo, to show her i'm there, to show her I haven't forgotten about her. But, due to this border change, I have met A LOT of people who have changed my life. Like, Katrina. She taught me to forget about my past mistakes, that THIS year, it can change, for the better. &Katie, she taught me to be a better person. That it's the little things that count. A lot of people have flown in and out of my life this year. Physicallly, they'll leave, but the memories i've had with them will NEVER leave. Trust, i've done some prettty dumb things last year, but THIS year, theres new possibilities. To show yourself, you CAN change for the better, not just for the worst. That there are other things to life than just llove, and lust. That we'd had our share of cries, and laughter, but somehow managed to get through it, in our own little way. Anyways, enough with the bad, its time for the goood memories we have shared. There are MANY things, I can never forget. &many people. To the times where I first came to AMS, and it felt so empty, like half of me was left at Chavez, to the times where I come to school, where there's open arms, to keep you warm. From the times where i'd cried, night after night, over a guy who wasn't even worth my time. I ALSO learned from that, although she hasn't. If a guy is tearing you and your friend apart, shit, hes not even worth the shit your giving him. & to the times where I would cry myself to sleeep, thinking where I would be if I never had met kenzi. I've learned from my mistakes, and trust me, thats better said than done. This year, I hope I can be a better person, someone to be proud about. Someone who i'm comfortable with; in my OWN skin. To be someone whom I choose to be, not some pressured little slut whom everyone has made her into be. I hope the new year can mean as much as you to me, and I hope you have a goood one. (= hahah, I love you, KATRINA, I know your watching, cousin. :D